【Hua ψ Sheng】Blog

成熟

2012-02-15T23:21:00.001-08:00

你离开以后我经历了很多事情，说真的日子真的很难过。还记得以前我答应过你会给你好日子过，结婚时要用自己买的车，婚礼要摆在hotel。现在看回去，我们都还没成熟,我说过的承诺都只是幼稚的大话。当回到一个人的生活后，我才渐渐明白这个社会。而我也还只一个还没成熟的小伙子。我明白了或许我们分是一件好事，让我变更成熟，如果下次我们有缘再成为峦人，我会确确实实的给你幸福而不一昧的开空头支票....

相遇

2012-02-10T11:58:00.000-08:00

今天在Gurney的Popular看见了你，让我似乎平静的心再次的波动了起来，当我看到你的那一幕，我有一份的喜悦，当我看见他的手靠在你的肩膀时我就好像被闪电劈了一下不知如何是好...看见了你，我oiii~~~了一声，你也Hey了一下，大家很自然的走开了。这种感觉就是“熟悉的陌生人”？？大家明明很了解对方，可是却不能再像以前一样的甜蜜....我走了一圈，脚很不由自主的又在绕了一圈，看见了你在柜台排队，我忍不住地望了很久，虽然很不甘心，最后我还是吸了一口气冲出了popular，直接离开了....我明白这是人生的一个阶段，有可能这是我的第一次经历，所以特别疼,谢谢你给了我这个经历....（我想了想，或许就是因为我太理智，永远不会用感性的一面来陪你,让我们失去了那份应有的甜蜜，我清楚你的个性，也许就是看得太清楚了，才会造就到今天的地步，你让我明白了一份感情不可以只有百分之百的理性，理智，有时也需要用感性来对待对方才能天长地久）

今天是我第一次看到那个男人的样貌，我很想打电话问你，到底是什么原因让你那么的坚决的对他痴迷....就算是放弃你身边的男朋友，朋友也要跟他在一起....可是我想了想，既然分开了就潇洒一点吧，就算知道了答案，事实还是不会改变，又何苦让自己痛苦呢...

我自己想了想：
他有你想要的高度（是你一直对我说，如果你高过我就好了，那我就可以靠在你的胸前）.....
或许他有比我感性的一面？可以让你觉得像公主一般的被疼爱？而不是我一直理智，理性的对待你？
我很想知道答案，纠正我的缺点，等待你的回来
（或许这就是你厌倦了我的原因，可是我只想让你知道，我所做的一切都是因为我爱你，我希望我们的感情可以是成熟的，可是我想象的往往都没有发生过）........

第一次

2012-01-28T00:23:00.001-08:00

还记得这张照片吗？只是我们第一次一起出门时的合照（这也时我们的第一张合照，没几个人看过吧）。我还记得你那天穿的衣服，在电梯时，你叫我站在你后面（帮你挡裙）我还傻傻问你为什么，你回答我 “我会走光”。。（我很傻ho）你还一直叫我不要那么紧张，放轻松点，我告诉你这是我第一次跟女生单独出门。。你笑了（回想起来，我们真的很可爱..:)...）

2012新年

2012-01-25T06:08:00.000-08:00

新年了，你过得好吗？..在Italy玩得开心吗？..新年应该是很开心的日子，可是今年的新年我却感受不到那份开心....我想起去年你在中国Facetime给我...我还为了你带Macbook到外婆家等...约定的时间到了，我赌博赌到一半也停下来坐在SOFA等...Connect到了，我还到处拿着Macbook给人看...(真的是开心到) 。今年，一样的地方，一样的Macbook，一样的时间我已经不能再看到你了...前几天，看了你的Facebook，看到你过得很好心里也觉得好一些，可是不甘心的是给你幸福的竟然不是我...（你还记得天尊的话吗？它说我不会是你的老公，还有一个，我想是天尊的话灵验了。我多希望天尊的意思是说再多一个你才会找到老公，而不是多一个就是你的老公....）今天在外婆家他们买了Petaling Street Warrior的 DVD，让我想起当我在KL时你说过你跟朋友去看这部戏...或许那时就是他对你下手的时候. 这1个月我过得很辛苦...心中有无限的痛，悲伤，不甘不懂怎么发泄.....

P/S 前几天在Facebook看到一个Quote ...请珍惜另一半，大家都是不完美，可是他选择了你，珍惜愿意等你的人（还记得那天晚上我说过，不管你的性格多么的不好，大小姐脾气，我都愿意等你，我都等了1年，为什么不能等多1年？5年？10年？只要你愿意改，我就愿意等...我实现我的诺言了，你感受到了吗？

临界点

2012-01-16T21:21:00.000-08:00

现在我的心很忐忑不安，正处于慢慢恢复到Single的生活可是却偶尔会想你的好，觉得很寂寞，很孤单，很没有归属感，你曾经是我生活的一根重要的柱子，我的生活都离不开你可是现在我仿佛感受到那根柱可是却摸不到，看不到。。。。我现在的生活就是醒来看有什么事情做，如果没什么特别事情，我都是待在hostel发呆，facebook。。。。很纳闷！！！

回忆

2012-01-13T12:02:00.001-08:00

凌晨3点，我躺在床上找着iphone的apps 看到了一个很熟悉的category...Game: kids....这是你一直下载游戏的catagory，我还讲你好像小孩子一样玩小孩子的游戏，回想起来还真是很开心现在的我们只剩下回忆，一切都以成往事。你的容貌还是在我脑中徘徊，希望我们有缘再能成为恩爱的夫妻。

如果你看了这，你是我的初恋，我把我全部的爱都给了你，有可能我表达的方式错了，可是我想让你知道我爱你一生一世....永不后悔！

12/1/2012

2012-01-12T02:33:00.001-08:00

12/1/2012 is the date that indicates you had left me for 1 month...this is the longest period that I had not seeing you since we first met...i saw PFY 8282 at timesquare yesterday..but it just reminds me that we are only friend now...although I wish to have a chance to meet you at that time but your car just disappeared after a few mins...

2012年

2012-01-09T19:47:00.000-08:00

人家都说新的一年，会很美好...可是我却觉得新的一年十分不好.....在2012年要到来时，我爸爸证实得了癌症......2011年12月头，我心爱的爱人离开了我，月中，考试成绩放榜，我Fail了....现在2012年年头，我刚刚被通知说我必须在2月15号前搬出去，因为屋主要拿回我的房间让他的侄儿住......

我的人生啊，到底发生什么事....2012年我的人生发生么那么多变化，全部都是不好的.....我望着天，对它说，这是一个考验吗？还是你想对我说什么？请不要在那么残忍的对待我......我只想回到以前安稳的生活，家人健康，有一个爱我的女朋友....学业安安稳稳的度过.....我不奢求能大富大贵，只希望能有一个安稳的生活.......求求你！天啊，帮帮我！！！

想念你

2012-01-09T03:23:00.000-08:00

多3天，就一个月了....我无时无刻的都在想念你，可是当我想念到一定程度时，就会觉得好像缺少了什么。。想了想，原来是我失去了你.....现在你的功课很忙....我想你们应该会很少见面，这让我有一种不好的预感.....我意识到了这次的等待不会是1个月，2个月，有可能是1年，2年或者更长....可是我还是会等着你，我每天都在想着当你回来的那天，我会是多么的开心.....我期待那天的到来....可是当我想到这，脑海中就会浮现你已经离开了我，跟别人在一起了，我只是你的朋友，就好像你告诉我的这就叫最熟悉的陌生人....我尝试找一些事情来让自己很忙，可是你的脸庞一直在我脑海中，一直在第一位，不管什么东西都取代不了....我很矛盾...我希望你可以快乐，同时也希望你能回来我身边....我不想当你的朋友更不想当什么最熟悉的陌生人...我想当你的男朋友！！几年后，我想当你的老公！！

我写这些，是希望能传达给你知道我的心意，我没有想要中伤你的意思，如果你觉得困扰，不耐烦，打电话给我跟我说或者骂我...我随时都回抽出时间等你的...:).....

愿你幸福

2012-01-05T10:49:00.000-08:00

再过6天，我们就分手1个月了,新学期开始了，你继续忙你的Assignment我也正在慢慢的疗伤，我无时无刻都在想你过得好吗？他对你好吗？心想正在热恋的你应该过得还不错..。我也觉得欣慰。..前几天发了信息给你，很开心你还当我是朋友....如果你看到这些，我只想让你知道，我的心放不下你，时间久了或许你的脸孔在我的记忆中慢慢的变得模糊，你的笑容我也只隐约的记得，可是我们快乐的回忆依然缠绕着我，我无时无刻都还感受到爱你的心从未改变...我好想告诉你如果有一天你选择回来我身边我会毫无条件的接受你,好像以前一样的继续爱着你，疼你，再三的苦苦哀求你留下或许会让你觉得困扰，反感，觉得我毫无尊严，没有男人气概，可是在你面前我希望能对你展现我温柔的一面，我想让你感到温暖，让你觉得自己很幸福..可是故事的发展看来是出乎了我的意料..

走到哪里，看到新的事物我会第一时间拿起电话想告诉你，可是每当我拿起电话，就让我想你已经离开了我...内心无比的酸疼，眼泪慢慢的流出来...这都是我这几个星期来必经的事情....看了以前一直穿的裤子，发觉我瘦了，最近都没什么胃口吃东西，我想起了在Gurney你一直对我说“Aiyo, 你可以不要一直拉你的裤子吗？” 我好怀念，我好不舍得....

说了可能你会觉得我很傻，我一直相信这是一个考验，让我们出去成长，过程完了我们还是会在人生的下一站相见，重聚....我希望在这过程中，你能过得快乐幸福...如果他不能给你幸福，我希望我会是那个被选中的人，可以时时刻刻的守护者你，哄你，迁就你，让你依靠的男人...

新的一年

2011-12-31T20:40:00.000-08:00

转眼间，2012年1月1日了，想起那天你跟我突然跟我说"我想一个人" 这个场景一直在我的脑海中徘徊...我想起了当我们的感情刚开始的时候，我们多么的可爱，缅甸...从redbox出来去看戏的时候是多么的幸福...我们在海边拍照...虽然之后的生活有些平淡，可是我却很乐在其中，每天早上，当我听到房间门开起来，都会自动地睁开眼睛，听见你说“醒料~醒料~肚子饿料"..我觉得是多么的幸福....我换了衣服，我们就驾着车，出门去找食物，心情好就去0 degree买水然后回家铺报纸一边看戏，一边吃饭。你时常说我的饭盒都比你的丰富...我也会把我的鱼分一点给你.看到你吃得开心，YUm Yum.我有份说不出的幸福感....到了有上课的日子，我会跟你一起到槟城去，载你去college然后我再hostel等（玩maple/睡觉）等到了11点半，我的电话闹钟就会响，提醒我你要下课了，等你的信息到说“ I m done” 我就去载你去吃午餐...吃了后又把你载回college，然后我又去hostel等....6点钟，我又等你的信息到，就去载你一起回家...回家路上如果意识到会塞车，我们就去McD买东西一边吃一边等塞车...这是多么幸福的事啊....

那些都是我生活的旋律，你已经我的全部...还记得你在电话告诉我你不喜欢一个人在家，从那一刻起我就决定把我大部分的时间都给你，尽我所能得陪着你....人家都告诉我“你这样在她家住，好像入赘一样”，朋友说自从我们在一起我就没时间陪朋友，一直在北海，我都没关系，因为我知道我爱你...你是我的全部...我可以为你放下我的尊严，给你我所有的一切...当你肚子饿，附近的餐厅我们都吃到闷了，我便开始学下厨...因为你，我学会了煮一些基本的菜，炖基本的汤...我们一起到econsave买材料，你说我好像aunty一样，拖着手推车在那边选材料...我却觉得很幸福，很温馨...当我到有机店，看到kari酱，我第一时间想到就是买回去煮给你吃...基本上我们就好像一对小夫妻，一起生活，一起快乐....你也对我说过，在你之前的男友中，你都没有对他们说过“I LOVE YOU" 我是第一个..当时我的心情是多么的开心，虽然我当时不懂得怎样反应...

也因为有你，让我人生第一次出国，跟你家人到新加坡去玩，我们觉得我们就好像在渡蜜月一样，我是多么的兴奋，多么的开心。去ｌａｎｇｋａｗｉ，我是多么的ＥＮＪＯＹ．．因为有你...

回想起这些回忆，都已经是回忆，当你说你想一个人的那天起，大家都告诉我一定有别的男人在搞怪，我坚信你应该是之前考试压力，需要一些时间来冷静，总有一天你会回来我身边的..我一直等，在你的facebook post 我在等你，我还爱着你，看到的竟然是我的贴被删除了...你告诉我不是你删除的，我深信不疑，就当我在post过的时候，又在被删除了..我无言了...是那个男人叫你那么做的吗？还是你担心让那个男人看到？我知道我没希望了，可是我还是厚着脸皮的发信息给你，几天后你block了我的facebook，我哭了...我看到了你在那个男人的wall post了那些歌，我的内心深处无比的酸痛。我还能做什么？我真的无助了，我去了ＫＬ的一个星期，他到底对你做了什么，说了什么？我们１年８个月的感情，就败给了他１星期的甜言蜜语？你把感情看得那么儿戏吗？现在你跟那个男的正式在一起了．．我一个星期来都发着同一个梦，梦见他把你给抢走了，我被取代了．．那个默默为你付出，深深爱着你的傻瓜，被一个甜言蜜语的高手踢出局了．．．大家都叫我放弃了，不值得为了你等下去，可是我的心里，一早就认定你是我的新娘，我要跟你白头到老，不管你有什么坏习惯，大小姐脾气，我都会等你慢慢改．．不管是１年，１０年，２０年，我都愿意等．．现在说什么都是空谈，你已经选择了别人，一直以来，你要什么我都会给你，就好像我一直对你说的　“从我们认识到现在，你要什么，我是不是都会给你？"．．这次也不例外，我还是一样的疼你，爱你，默默地守护你，希望你会看到这日记。

最后我想跟对你说，我不在的日子要好好照顾自己，不要被人骗了，糟蹋了，虽然大家都说你对我很残忍，没有顾虑到我的感受，可是我并没有恨你，没有怨你，相反我还是一样的爱着你，希望有一天能继续的疼你，爱惜你．．．有事没事你还是可以找我，我会一直等着你的电话，等有一天你会回来我身边，再次投入我的怀抱中。保重．．愿你的生活过得美满快乐..

我哭了

2011-12-07T02:08:00.000-08:00

自从KL回来我第一件事就是想见你。晚上9点到槟城，我期待着明天下午跟你一起吃午餐，晚上一起回家的生活。可是正当我等到兴致勃勃的时候你发了一封信息说“你自己去午餐吧，等下我跟同学去吃午餐然后回课室继续做功课” 我那时的心情真的有如晴天霹雳，可是理智压抑了我的心酸，我一直想着功课比较重要，就这样一个人去了附近的粥店吃了一碗肉粥，走回来时我还呕了一半出来。（当时我发烧+喉咙痛+咳嗽着）。正当我看到时间接近5点了，我赶紧去冲了一个凉（因为你不喜欢看到laktak的我）做在椅子上等着你的信息。到了6点，我收到了你的信息，可是内容让我的眼泪不受控制的从眼眶里滴了出来。（我现在正赶着北海，我朋友要追巴士）。我那时心想，在你心中，朋友就比我重要吗？你的学院就在我宿舍附近，难道绕过来就那么花时间？我二话不说直接打了通电话给你问你我今晚睡宿舍？答案：嗯。。。。。。。

今天，我也一如往常10点多睡醒就发了封信息给你问你是不是在上课。等到11点多，我又发了封信息问你等你我是不是又自己解决午餐？答案：是，对不起，这个星期很忙。。。。算了，要伤心的昨天都伤心够了，我就一个人自己去吃，没什么大不了。。。。。。我就一个人在宿舍上网+玩game+睡觉等着你下课。当我看到时间又在跳到5点钟时，我发了封信息给你问今天你要我在宿舍还是跟你回去？答案：你在宿舍吧，很忙啊！！！我在回家的途中了。。。。。。这是我的心不懂该由什么来形容。。。你在回家途中了？。。。LOL。。。。我把我大部分的时间都拿来陪你就因为你跟我说过你不喜欢一个人在家里孤零零，我为了迁就你，我的父母，朋友们一直高渊，北海，槟城三边跑。。我考试要到的时候我还是一直陪着你，现在的心情，就让我觉得LOL。。。我在你的心里到底是在什么位置。朋友就那么比我重要吗？。。。。或许我有些自私，在你year end project的时候要这样迁就我，对不起，这是我一厢情愿。或许人家跟我说的未必没有道理，付出得越多，得到的回报未必一样多。当你一昧的为了一样事物付出往往会失去身边的人或事。。。。。。。。

Updates

2011-11-08T21:18:00.001-08:00

2~3 weeks after exam...I was in relax mode and guess I abandoned too much my studies for d pass few weeks..:(..gotta catch up before its too late..:)..pray for my result!!...

Things been changed recently , we should always bare in mind that friendships are precious thus should be appreciated..:)....I hope our friendship and personality should be retain as last time when we were having those happy moments..:)...cheers!!!..

update

2011-04-04T09:52:00.000-07:00

After CNY, ATC started revision class and I was running between Penang Island and Butterworth....Revision class started would mean exam is juz about the corner....EMO man..haizzz...

I went back to NT yesterday , Sorry to my Hunney that I didn't tell her I went to play basketball and cause her to worry about me...sorry Hunney...>.<..Coincidently it was Sunday, I went to Pasar Malam, everything is still the same, same taiwan 珍珠奶茶 stall，Cloth stalls, Snacks stall.....The only different is I m getting older d...looking at those 小妹妹 recalled my memories about d time when we were in 2ndary schl...>.<...EMO again...haha!!

Today, I m back to Penang again....today lecturer is a Prof come from UK...I was excited to listen to his lecture but he speaks so softly until I m confused with what the hell he is talking about..haha!!...

Juz now, before I came back from FTZ with MX, Hunney called me and told me she doesn't likes to be alone...I really hope that I have a car so that I can always go to find you...unlike others, they are locals and transport wouldn't be a problem. Although I didn't seem concerned, but I have my difficulties. Is not I don't want, is I cannot....Sorry Hunney.

Update

2011-02-05T09:45:00.000-08:00

I stayed at my GF house for about 1 Month and recently came back to NT to celebrate CNY...:)...( YEE YEE say since I got GF I 没有理 my friends d. Here, I apologize to my friends , the truth is I m more to the passive type and I will wait for you to call me out...:)...)

CNY sounds exciting but quite boring in reality....

1st day = ang pao + gambling

2nd day = ang pao+ gambling

3th day = boring......>.<""...

My GF traveled to China with her family and thanks to Iphone facetime I can have video call with my Hunney thru WIFI...:)

yesterday nite, I were invited to Yee Yee house to 拜年 ....what can i say is she changed alot...:)..after that , standard activity, I, Danny, Kae Min, Chuan Ping , Chyi Chun went to pancor CC....we were still the same as we were during 2ndary schl but someone attitude had become worsten....

Today, I had a chat with EE Shiuen and knowing that he broke up with his GF since January...:(...(Mayb this is one of the evidence I lack contact with my friend..)

Tmr, I m going to Genting and hoping will be a good trip and also hope that this CNY will be more exciting....:)...

Exam

2011-01-14T05:22:00.000-08:00

Juz got informed exam coming on 11th of May...>.<...4 subjects to go....>.<' Hav to really prepare for it d....

Spiritual Incident

2011-01-13T19:32:00.000-08:00

Started on highway and the environment was quite dark, I was in ShunGee VIOS and we were planning to stop after paying TOL. While we were slowing down, a grey colour HONDA and police car appear from the dark and I saw police officers were arresting few malay teenagers. One of the malay boy got into our car and suddenly rush to me....Oh, It was a dream...~.~...

While I opened my eyes, I saw a body with a while colour baby shape things on hand standing in front of 1meter length of my bed. I was shocked , while asking myself to stay calm, I keep asking myself is this part of dream??... I opened my eyes once to reconfirm what I saw, IT IS STILL THERE!!!!...T.T....3th-ly, I opened my eyes again and it juz disappear......( after this, the room became very hot although air-con was switched on)......

It this true?? or merely illusion from my half-awaken conscious after nightmare??

Traffic Jam

2010-11-16T07:18:00.001-08:00

Today 1pm, I went over to Gurney Plaza to watch Unstoppable, it is a great movie, describing the situation where due to a worker negligence caused a coastal to travel at 80Mph on the main rail....the hero which is a well-experienced engineer of the train company saved the disaster by his experience of driving the train for 28 years......

After the movie, PY and I were driving home to butterworth....when I turned into Jelutong express way....I shouted " wow, speechless...Jam like hell!!!"....( as a result of that, kena PY say I sampat...>.<)...So, We decided to turn to Queensbay Mall to had our dinner first since we still have chance to change route...

When I again turn into Penang Bridge, I shouted again " Wow, Imba!!!"...( Kena Shoot again)...>.<"....I can see Penang Bridge was "decorate" by red bulbs....=.="....Imba.!!!...

Few days ago, I were jammed in the traffic for 3hours to back to PY house...salute to those who travel everyday from butterworth to Penang Island...thumb up for their patience...xD.:)...

New Laptop...xD

2010-11-08T22:07:00.001-08:00

I got my MacBook Pro today...xD....siok~~~haha!!!...xD..:)

Inpiring night...

2010-10-22T10:11:00.000-07:00

I went to Cititel hotel today to attend a thanks giving ceremony by legency ( insurance agency which MX working for)........ I had my whole night there from 6 to 11pm......it was a great night as I get to listen to life experience from those agents and difficulties they faced while they first stepped into the society.........Some of them were not supported by their parents at the beginning when they started their "journey" to be an insurance agent......Some of them appreciated helps and supports from friends or even strangers.....there was a very touching scene, everybody is crying, hugging with their '贵人' and lastly I get to know d difficulties of starting a business.....The manager was having a hard time when he started this group, by getting helps from " 贵人" he managed to continue this group and he is driving Camry now...!!! haha!!....

there is a idiom from chinese " you'll get a tree if u planted tree , you will get melon if you planted melon"
it is basically means you will success if you work hard, what you plant is what you get.........

2010-09-08T02:39:00.000-07:00

I went to open an saving account at Bank Muamalat ( hav u guys heard of this bank????) to apply for PTPTN loan.....
My first reaction when I first step into the Bank were " WTF??? So small!!!....This is the smallest bank I ever seen!!!...." There are 3 counters, 2officer and a Customer service counter which is empty....This Bank made up from 2 shoplots and inside hav no customers...SWT!!!
I Filled Forms and Deposited RM50( normally we will hav to deposit at least RM300/RM500 into the account, but this bank only require RM50 ).... After I hand up all the applications...I waited half an hour( Mayb more than that) though I m the only customer there..!!!!....I left the Bank once I get my account book and ATM card..( I Like the ATM card, is so "good-looking" haha! )...

2010-09-04T06:11:00.001-07:00

Recently, I m having problems with my girlfriend.....The major issue will be I m so worry to get into argument with her and we will end up breaking up......So...she is complaining that I should tell her if there are any " unhappy" on my side or someday I will just "explode" and things will get even worst....BUT , Sometimes it just became very hard to express........and a boyfriend should always show understanding and sympathy to girlfriend..isn't it??

Although I feel " unhappy" , everything will be fine and my heart will gone " soft" when I saw you, baby!!!! Maybe I define this as LOVE!!....
I Love You as in I prefer myself to endure all those unessential grumble rather than seeing you to be unhappy
I Love You as in I hope to make you always smile and happy...:)
I Love You as in I hope to spend my every single second with you..
I Love You as in I could do anything to satisfy you.....

But, things just do not always happen in a perfect way.......I m always disappointing you and causing you to "pek chek"......But Baby~~ Do believe in everything I done , I think of you first...Just that I did not do it at the right moment and with the right way....I really hope I would be more " experienced" so that to get to fullfill everything I should give you...I M SORRY!!

There will be happy and unhappy moments for a couple......I hope this problem will get thru very fast and we will be together forever~~~!!!...^^...:)

First Month~~~

2010-05-14T07:06:00.000-07:00

Recalling back memory while I skipped class to RedBox which caused a major change in my life. Its been a Month where I m no longer Single , 14/5/2010 is the first month anniversary of my relationship with my hunney~~~

I learned and tried a lot of things in this one month time~ which I never did before for d previous 19years, such as , Driving 140km/h from Nibong Tebal to Butterworth to meet Girlfriend , holding a girl's hand in the public , bringing a girl home to meet my parents and also I went to meet her parents , etc..etc....etc..............................................................................

What I wan to say is I appreciate this relationship with you~~~Hunney~~and although we didn't do any celebration for today~~~my heart is always with you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

告别单生~~~

2010-04-16T08:36:00.000-07:00

2010-4-14....Its d most precious moment in my life....^^ That day we was having Raffieqa Tort revision , as class going on..Min Xiang keep singing in class which make us think of to go to RedBox instead of getting in a boring class........

I invited Peck Ying , Esther& Vinc( their 2nd month anniversary)... while we were having lunch...Shungee told me this is d most " beautiful " timing which i can sing a song and propose at RedBox.... As they were having lunch..i was thinking which song was d most appropriate to be sang...^^...

While we reach Gurney~~we walked around gurney and I m pretending nothing gonna happen.....we went to find Esther and Vinc , buy movie ticket~~~~walk walk~~~~~^^

Finally, reached 3pm ( we booked rexBOx at 3pm).....as everybody there....we went into d climax of d day~~~....I keep searching 永邦~~~for so long which I felt a bit dissapointed d....at the end i found it also~~~haha...and I selected d song " 你是我最爱的女人 "....( before that...Min Xiang them selected lots of songs which make my song a bit behind.....) Suddenly everybody kept quite and Min Xiang passed d Mike to me..~~~haha...Finally, reach d...~~haha....

As i start to sing~~~( cz my singing skill nt very nice , a bit...haha) everybody keep quite~~~..and she is listening with her red tomato face~~~..haha....while chorus came~~ ( 你是我最深爱的女人，你拥有美丽的眼神~~你带给我幸福和快乐~~~) then d mood came d...haha...after I finished d song~~~~Esther pushed her to me~~and I HOLDED HER HAND~~~haha!!!!haha~!!! this PArt really Thx to Ryan~~~( cz i a bit " wood ”..)....oh yeah~~~~haha.....

P/S mayb due to my language contraint....i cant really describe d atmosphere with English~~~but time i really felt 幸福+快乐~~~haha......

THX To Those Who Helped Me that Day~~~~Really , Thank you~~~GuyS~~~

^^...^^...^^...^^...^^

:D :D :D :D :D :D :D

生锈了？？还是我从来就没学会过？？

2010-03-04T06:33:00.000-08:00

自从我懂事以来，周围的人都让我觉得爱情这个话题应该有着很“纯洁”+“美好”的感觉，虽然有些人把爱情当儿戏，然而这让我对爱情有了多一份的执著，所以我都在找一个真正可以与我白头偕老的女生，然而我一找就找了19年.....说长不长，说短不短的19年，我一直都是生活在单生的世界里，站在旁边开着那些情侣甜甜蜜蜜，卿卿我我，心里总有一份辛酸，可是我知道我寻找的爱情并不是这种看似甜蜜可是却不完整+不正经的爱情.......

在我中学的时候，我曾经喜欢上一个女生（知情的人就不必多说了）那时的她可是很多人追求的女生，而我却是一个平凡的小男孩，所以那时害羞+胆小的我就让这份感觉埋在心里随时间飞逝........
现在我读college了，是时候到外面认识女生朋友的时候，我反而不会去交涉了，就昨天，daniel叫我去问问班上新intake女生的名字，我发现我竟然控制不了之前那种对女生存在的避忌的感觉，就连一个名字我都问不到.....我心里在想: 是不是因为我习惯了躲开女生？？还是我之前太挑剔了？？还是我之前没有用到这方面的 “才能” 所以现在变得陌生了；我根本就没有这个才能？？又或许我不知道什么是爱情？？

到了我的年龄，谈峦爱也算是很平常的事情，可是我却不会怎样去追求女生，明明就有喜欢的人，可是就不敢去告白，是生锈了？？还是我打从一开始就不会？？还是因为我从来没有用过：我从来没有学会过？？？

P/S 我是不是应该重新找回这方面的感觉呢？？还是继续寻找心目中的 "天使"？？

Tiring day....

2010-02-01T02:59:00.001-08:00

Today i brought a 2nd hand PC from NetCity ( An Internet Cafe Near my Hostel) and it costed me Rm390 ( accually my mother, haha)....Me and Ryan carry the CPU from the internet cafe until my hostel and we were "wetted" by sweat......and finally we settled up my PC and one good news....i can play DOTA later..xD.....

Shop in Giant

2010-01-20T04:57:00.001-08:00

Today abt 7pm when i was creeping from bed to my laptop, some kind of inspiration makes me wants to hav same chicken as my dinner and d 1st place i can think of is KFC..xD....

After settled with bathing , combing ,i went to eat KFC.........

During d journey back to my hostel.....i walked pass Giant and think of to buy some daily supplies , this is my 1st time shop in Giant and also shop for daily supplies...xD....

I saw people pushing trolly car searching for items they want...and i was walking between blocks blocks....as total i brought RM54 stuff....and i got 2 stickers ( collect 182 stickers for a set of itally cooking set ,WTF!!!!!)

xD....

Life After exam...

2009-11-16T21:39:00.000-08:00

13/11/2009 is the end of my AS exam....enjoying life with no books+ less study now...xD..

Exam Time...

2009-10-11T20:20:00.000-07:00

11.20AM and i m still blogging inside my house....exam is starting on 2pm....hope that those topic which i expected will come out arbo tio cham liao.........

2009-10-04T08:52:00.000-07:00

6/10/2009 is when my mock exam and CIE exam starts, it will be a hard time for me during the exam period .Since it has interrupted my life miserably ,i was thinking why should we hav exam?? is it really to prove what we know to d examiner?? or juz to pass and get the qualification?? or other reasons??

Today , i was totally forget abt d revision class on this morning..until Daniel phoned me and i was practically "jump" up from my bed and rushed to college , although i was late for 30mins...but as a result of didn't study before i came to revision class...i was "shoted" by Dr.Karling quite miserably.." Study lah, exam coming edi , why u all still dun wan to study...like that how to pass" Although it is really annoying and i really "tak siok" at that moment...juz becz of i forget to study d Business Book recommended by Dr. Karling..and get "shoted" so cham...

p/s : tmr i m going to library to study d book....1 week be4 CIE exam...and i m still hugging buddha's leg....Dunnoe can even pass mock exam or not....T.T...

Bad Day....

2009-09-13T00:40:00.000-07:00

12/9/2009 is the most bad day for me during the whole year...........

Last Class

2009-09-09T02:14:00.000-07:00

Today is the last day for law class for us Jan intake......We had learned ELS ( English Legal System ), Contract Law and Law of Tort.......Although our official classes is doned but we will still attend other intakes classes as revision ( our college allows that...xD)...

It is soo memorable start from January when we 1st came into ATC until now we finished/going to finish d whole syllabus and summore exam is coming soon...Time go thru faster and faster compared to previous years, its now september....haiz.....

Hope that i can get thru my A level exam, esp my English Literature....xD

18th birthday

2009-08-31T19:57:00.001-07:00

For readers information , my birth date was in 31 august 1991
One day be4 my birthday, everything was happening as usual- went to college, game, etc....but something interesting happened after i received a call from Daniel which said that there will be a Gathering held by his mother( our tuition teacher )tonite in his house, i agreed to go without askin who is attending ..(too excited edi)..kaka... It was a wonderful nite as we had a lot of laugh&joy....

31th august 2009:

Morning i missed the promise which i promised kae min to play basketball with him be4 he went of to KAMPAR( pai seh)...after that, i went to AUTO CITY with my parents to had our lunch...then we straight go to PACIFIC..xD...here are the foods..xD

xD...tq to my parents for d meal...xD....

A Long Long Week...

2009-08-29T09:43:00.000-07:00

It was 2 weeks ago since i came back to my hometown- Nibong Tebal(NT). Today, when i pass thru Jawi Tol station , i felt that i was like left my lovely hometown for few month and it was so strange to me that images which reflected NT scenery is getting replaced by pictures of life in Penang...then only i realise , it was a long long week in PG,many things happened- revision class, extra classes, The most assignment given ever....i was like abondoned tis land which i stayed 18years for few centuries, and some sort of strangeness appear when i went to my usual ' lepak ' place. It is quite Sad.....

Hope that i will stick to d news happened to NT and keep in touch with d things happening here..xD Good Night ,everybody...xD

Revision class

2009-08-23T02:50:00.000-07:00

We are having revision classes due to exam is coming soon. These revision classes are seperated into few weeks and section...and today i had gone thru the 1st section of 7 hour business studies revision....It is quite ok at the beginning..since it was new and i m quite ohm-ed.......

Dr. Kar ling (our business studies lecturer) tell us that she will only gone thru the answering skills during exam but not the theories. I felt like so lucky becz i did my readings yesterday. After the lunch break at 1pm~2pm , i was de-omhed. Dunnoe why, i felt like so less motivated, lazy, no energy...and even i cant analyse d question given by Dr. kar ling . Anyway, tis is the first approach, and Dr. kar ling said that we will tuned to the answering skills after the end of 5 section revision classes...(Hopefully)....

Ok, i gonna Sleep awhile..xD...

Burned

2009-08-22T08:30:00.000-07:00

Since few weeks ago , i can felt of some dot dot was growthing around upper part of my back - near with my neck.I thought it was mosquito bites or juz simply dot dot with no harm effect ,since it doesn't caused any itchi ,uncomfortable , unconvenient over me , i ignored them but after it was being abondoned for 2weeks. 'Teng Teng Teng Teng ' It shows it 'true face' , expanding from rather juz being some dot dot into somekind of ugly scars....

Today when i went to cut hair at extreme with wen ge and wen guang ( tis part will be another topic ) , the stylist recommend a kind of medicine to me as he also ' kena ' the samething with me . And this kind of scars is explained to be caused by somekind of insects spliting out poisonous fluid which will burn up our skin, and i m the unlucky one who 'kena ' the fluid. After d asking and answering section, i went to watsons to inquire for medicine recommended by the stylist,and the shopkeeper sounded ' whoa ' when she saw my scars.xD ,

p/c : is it disgusting ? cool ? or looks like wound bitten by zombie??

Incredible day

2009-06-23T09:26:00.000-07:00

today i had gone through the best contract class......Miss Vaani is teaching us instead of Raffica - Miss Vaani is quite famous in our college as most of my classmate had saw her scolding those seniours in the balcony........

today class was in perfect silent...even those joker( i wont mention their names but those who are in my class should know) also sitting quitly like a tamed pet...xD...

During the class , i felt accually we are still not good enough in the basic of law of contract....Even a simple question as " what is an agreement " also we cant answer it properly......Some say consideration , they wan to be contracted , ITCLR , etc....(but luckily i gave the correct answer)...haha..xD...Miss Vaani dignity had caused the class in perfect silent. After the class, i saw Raffica went our with Miss Vaani and she whispered something beside Miss Vaani ears , it makes me think of Miss Vaani is a killer sended by Raffica to hav her ravenge as she was being bullied in the class be4....and she says "good job" to Miss Vaani in joy...haha....xD..

Hope that Miss Vaani will be teaching us not only today but for the rest of contract classes...xD..

Growth

2009-06-18T23:22:00.000-07:00

" Growing Up " is something Special and unexpressible.It is a function that was setted by GOD during the creation of Human , no one can explain detail for us even the cleverest person in the world .Perhaps it is a mission given by GOD to paint it out ourself..xD

During the process , different identities were experiencing different moment and we dont realise of it , some of them were having their childhood happily in the field with green grass and blue sky , some of were travelling all around the world but they hav no image of it , some of them were sended to tuition centre to get more skillfull , some of them were torturing by their parents , etc...( God is so imaginative even some of the incident we cant even think of ).

We also learned moral , social skills , ethics , customs , etc...but in case this is the most dangerous stage which it may affect our way of thinking. Some may think of by watching pornography is normal as human were born to it , but some may objecting the statement by saying that it had go against morality and ethics. Some one may think of the another party stubborn but the other side may think of they are too orthodox - =.=". Is is really a matter of our perception. Y dont human always think in different point of view as some of the orthodox should give more mercy for d more/over open-minded one?

Etc,etc,etc,etc stories happen around us.and what we hav to do is just a good observer and try to improve ourself by learning from the mistakes from others , perhaps this is the minimum requirement if we want to correct others we must do our part perfectly.Until here is my share , try to find out/paint your world with excitement and happiness as we only migrate to this world for some years, y dont try to make our life more happy????...xD

This Week

2009-05-20T23:11:00.001-07:00

At first, i was happily holidaying at my lovely hometown . I went to Langkawi with my Friends( although the stupid weather caused the trip quite sad , but it was a good trip..xD..a lot of joy , joking and i really enjoy it..xD)..

But , a suddenly swt which come across my mind..SHIT!!..my assignment...=.="..i haven even start to do it yet..and also my bussiness project..=.="!!!!....=.="...so i decided to go back to Penang's house.....

Monday , i came to PG with Wen Guang / Ge ( they was here to buy daily stuff which needed to bring to KAMPAR )..After a few hours..they were back to NT and i was left in PG....@.@..

Extreme sourness came accross my heart and i feel so down juz when i think of they are leaving to KAMPAR...=.="( sounds like i fall in love with them...haha..=.=") So, i decided again to go back to NT to stay with them for the rest of the week...xD...

HAIZ....Friend...We Smiled , Cried , Played , quarreled be4....These are the element which kindled our friendship...Hope that u guys will no forget abt me...and FRIENDSHIP FOREVER...xD..

心酸

2009-04-04T21:33:00.000-07:00

这个故事要从我还没中学毕业开始讲。我弟弟由于混上了一群Samseng后，就变成喜欢Lepak，穿衣穿到好像a pon一样，晚上夜夜才回家，patern多多，粗话更是他们的家常用语。除此以外，凡是“好料”的东西他都不会错过，也可以说他只拿“好料”来穿/吃。这种情形就一直维持到了我中学毕业。

中学毕业了的我到了“外面”继续读书，一开始还可以，一切都还好，可是久了就觉得少了一样东西。INTERNET!!!!!于是我就打听了所有Broadband 的价钱。到最后我选了P1Wimax，快，而且现在又在做这promotion。我那好那些资料后，就回家跟妈妈讲解，说服她。。。。。。。
当我讲到每个月要一百块的时候，妈妈突然问我“ 100块你觉得很便宜？？”我顿时清醒了，对！！100块确实是不便宜。。虽然说清醒了，可是当时我心里还是有些不爽。。。。。。。几小时后，妈妈做工回来，竟然我看到了妈妈累得躺在沙发上睡得像“猪”一样。。当时，一阵心酸的感觉突然涌上了我的心头。。这让我回想起了弟弟的挥霍，妈妈的辛苦，而我爸爸也失业了。我这样做会不会有些过分呢？？？。。。。那是起，我觉得我很不孝，很该死！！！禽兽！！！

这件事情让我清醒了，也觉悟了。。我出生是为了减轻妈妈的负担，不是要加重她的负担。。。。我希望我以后都不会在做这种鲁莽，不孝，禽兽的决定了。。。。。。。

My SPM result....

2009-03-12T20:02:00.000-07:00

At first....i was praying to get 5As in my SPM result.......but.....

Today , i went to schl with my mother at get my SPM result.....When i receive the paper...i was busying to sign on my sijil penamatan sekolah......suddenly my mother tells me " eh...1A only leh "......

After tat ...i juz look into the slip....=.=""" i only get An A for my Math.....

At that time...i feel to cry and everything is gone.......................and i tell myself ...I WONT CRY...!!
that is all i get for wat i did....

But really SIENZZZ>Z>Z>Z>Z>Z>>>>>......<<<<"""

So....As a result...my SPM result is 1A , 7B , 5C.....=.="""Quite lame result.....

Abt my driving test.....

2009-02-26T09:53:00.000-08:00

Since yee yee posted her experience in the NT friends blog.....then no choice i can only post mine here...xD although it is quite slow....but it is memorable.....xD

One day be4 the test..i was went to Queensbay with some friends....along the journey i was so nervous abt my driving test...becz if i failed on this time then i hav to retake the second test on 4th of march, tat's mean i hav to absent for another business studies class......So . I CANNOT FAIL..........That nite...i was struggling with those nervousness that makes me unable to fall asleep........

Tmr morning, when the chicken started to crow......i woke up and tried to make myself in perfect status.....xD....After that , i was fetched to the old place where i spended few month practising there.....i arrived there at abt 8am and i heard of those whispering said that the test is gonna start on 9am.....i swt...Then y i came there so early????.....no choise and i had to wait.....

Finally.....a black car with abt 10 tester came........and the stuff started to call names to register for car/motorcar test..... i was worrying which 1 should 1 register 1st becz i m taking double test...and the agent were not there......After a few second of thinking..i went to the counter of car test and registered myself , at that time i saw yee yee was just behind me....i was place at sesi 2 nombor 12 for car test...and sesi2 nombor 5 for motorcar.......

i thought it will took a few hour until my turns so i sat beside yee yee and tried to hav a chatting with her.......but something out of my expectation......suddenly my name is called and i was asked to do QTI test........wow....how come i was so luck...=.="......oh..accually our name is picked randomly......CHIu~~~

When i get into the car.....the atmosphere was different....it is just like i m versusing with the tester...he looks so cool with the uniform and sunglasses.........Firstly...i said " selamat pagi , encik " and i didn't receive any respond from him....=.=" After that, i did those preparation watever thought by the agent but i lefted out the most important thing........- i forgot to let go handbreak.....walao...i thought i was over...i gonna fail...however, i tried the best while on the road......the test tooks abt 10mins and i came back to the institution.....UNBELIEVEABLE....i passed the exam...i leave the car fulled with smiles..........I also passed the climb hill , parking part......i was in great happiness............................

But those happiness only last abt 2 mins.....then i hav to register myself to motorcar test......Another lucky day....my name was called 20mins after i register......wow...so nice...~~~hehe......As usual , i did again what is thought by the institution and i was also passed the test.......While i m walking into the office to enjoy with the Air-con....i meet yee yee....and she tells me that she also passed the exam.....( which she failed on 1st time QTI test )...But unfortunely Eng Cheng didn't do it so well.....she failed again in the climb hill test......bless her bah...~~~

That is all for my experience on that day......i summarize the scene while i meet my ex-schoolmates..., chatting , eatting , loitering part........xD...

The End....

Everything is on english now.....

2009-01-19T20:22:00.001-08:00

I had started my college life and now everything is different compared to when i was in Nibong Tebal , a small town where i hav been living for 17 years.......I have to change my current life style and speak in English more frequently....But it is quite challenging and accually college life is more exciting then my expectation.........well....await for the changes of myself in the future (mayb).....

And lastly i m learning my English now as well....so if any grammar mistakes or language problem....pls leave a comment and i will try to improve.......hehe.....

离开学校的时候。。

2009-01-17T07:54:00.000-08:00

平时我们在学校时都一直想着要回家。。。回家发呆也好过待在学校里。。。

可是现在我考完SPM了。。。离开了校园。。如愿以偿了。。。才开始觉得有些空虚，后悔。。原来在学校的时候时多么的幸福，开心。

我不时会回想起我们在学校里一起玩，唱歌，叛逆，抄功课，吵架。。。。。

现在这些都已成为过去。。。永远留在我们的心中。。找不回了。。没有了。。接下来我们大家都各分东西了。。。我真的很舍不得当时的那种感觉。。。朋友们。。再见了。。。。

朋友。。。。我会永远惦记我们有过的快乐。。。。。。