生锈了？？还是我从来就没学会过？？

自从我懂事以来，周围的人都让我觉得爱情这个话题应该有着很“纯洁”+“美好”的感觉，虽然有些人把爱情当儿戏，然而这让我对爱情有了多一份的执著，所以我都在找一个真正可以与我白头偕老的女生，然而我一找就找了19年.....说长不长，说短不短的19年，我一直都是生活在单生的世界里，站在旁边开着那些情侣甜甜蜜蜜，卿卿我我，心里总有一份辛酸，可是我知道我寻找的爱情并不是这种看似甜蜜可是却不完整+不正经的爱情.......

在我中学的时候，我曾经喜欢上一个女生（知情的人就不必多说了）那时的她可是很多人追求的女生，而我却是一个平凡的小男孩，所以那时害羞+胆小的我就让这份感觉埋在心里随时间飞逝........
现在我读college了，是时候到外面认识女生朋友的时候，我反而不会去交涉了，就昨天，daniel叫我去问问班上新intake女生的名字，我发现我竟然控制不了之前那种对女生存在的避忌的感觉，就连一个名字我都问不到.....我心里在想: 是不是因为我习惯了躲开女生？？还是我之前太挑剔了？？还是我之前没有用到这方面的 “才能” 所以现在变得陌生了；我根本就没有这个才能？？又或许我不知道什么是爱情？？

到了我的年龄，谈峦爱也算是很平常的事情，可是我却不会怎样去追求女生，明明就有喜欢的人，可是就不敢去告白，是生锈了？？还是我打从一开始就不会？？还是因为我从来没有用过：我从来没有学会过？？？

P/S 我是不是应该重新找回这方面的感觉呢？？还是继续寻找心目中的 "天使"？？

Tiring day....

Today i brought a 2nd hand PC from NetCity ( An Internet Cafe Near my Hostel) and it costed me Rm390 ( accually my mother, haha)....Me and Ryan carry the CPU from the internet cafe until my hostel and we were "wetted" by sweat......and finally we settled up my PC and one good news....i can play DOTA later..xD.....

Shop in Giant

Today abt 7pm when i was creeping from bed to my laptop, some kind of inspiration makes me wants to hav same chicken as my dinner and d 1st place i can think of is KFC..xD....

After settled with bathing , combing ,i went to eat KFC.........

During d journey back to my hostel.....i walked pass Giant and think of to buy some daily supplies , this is my 1st time shop in Giant and also shop for daily supplies...xD....

I saw people pushing trolly car searching for items they want...and i was walking between blocks blocks....as total i brought RM54 stuff....and i got 2 stickers ( collect 182 stickers for a set of itally cooking set ,WTF!!!!!)

xD....

Life After exam...

13/11/2009 is the end of my AS exam....enjoying life with no books+ less study now...xD..

Exam Time...

11.20AM and i m still blogging inside my house....exam is starting on 2pm....hope that those topic which i expected will come out arbo tio cham liao.........

6/10/2009 is when my mock exam and CIE exam starts, it will be a hard time for me during the exam period .Since it has interrupted my life miserably ,i was thinking why should we hav exam?? is it really to prove what we know to d examiner?? or juz to pass and get the qualification?? or other reasons??

Today , i was totally forget abt d revision class on this morning..until Daniel phoned me and i was practically "jump" up from my bed and rushed to college , although i was late for 30mins...but as a result of didn't study before i came to revision class...i was "shoted" by Dr.Karling quite miserably.." Study lah, exam coming edi , why u all still dun wan to study...like that how to pass" Although it is really annoying and i really "tak siok" at that moment...juz becz of i forget to study d Business Book recommended by Dr. Karling..and get "shoted" so cham...

p/s : tmr i m going to library to study d book....1 week be4 CIE exam...and i m still hugging buddha's leg....Dunnoe can even pass mock exam or not....T.T...

Bad Day....

12/9/2009 is the most bad day for me during the whole year...........